Today, one of my colleagues asked me, "Have you ever thought about what are we working so hard for?" "sense of achievement?" "or the joy of sharing and helping from the working?" I paused and thought about it kind of carelessly and answered, " I think it's easy for me to find the joy and positive side to work, but I don't find it's easy to have someone to mourn and accompany you when we are frustrated and desperate..."
It seems not a relative answer to her question. But on the way home riding my scooter, I reflected that I am the type of person who can get enough easily when any tiny good things happening. However, I felt when I am in the bad mood, or specifically to say, being lonely and pathetic, I always hope there will be someone with real flesh can stay together with me, which is happening fewer and fewer in the life. Last week, I just blamed my straight friend who didn't keep his promise to come to the church with me. Honestly and shamelessto say, I was depending on him more than God to lift me up.
I hope I can have some romance happening in the near future when I finally get my vacation done after the busy season. Hoping some hot sex can happen on me too.
For those who come from different countries, when you read this blogsite, I think you may be attracted by the porny picture and gay-related issue. Actually, this is only a silly diary of the lonely gay who happens to be bilingual. Although I don't expect someone to read my paragraphs, I will still feel excited if you leave a comment.
I do feel free to make friends from any places of the world.